Tis strangeee

It's so strange how after going away for a few days on a holiday or conference, coming back home and resuming with the normal day-to-day routine feels quite strange. As some of you know, last monday to wednesday i was at Changeover conference, in Kihilla (midway up the blue mountains i think), along with 70 or so other EU leaders for 2006-07. It was an awesome experience to say the least!

Changeover conference was a time of learning from Ephesians on the privilege, reality and power of serving our great God. It was also a time of planning and bonding with our teams/committees. And of course, fun and games and food!! The Science committee has been really committed and loving thus far, and its my hope and prayer that these qualities will only grow stronger throughout this year. It's such an amazing committee, and ive been really overwhelmed and humbled by being given the privilege of serving with them! Two years ago when i started uni, i would've never imagined myself in such a position, but God's grace has truly been abundant :)

Our vision for EU Science is: to be a tight-knit and out-reaching community, compelled by God's love, that lives passionately and prayerfully as Spirit-filled Christians. Our vision for this vision is that it will all be brought under the Lordship of Christ, and carried by His loving hands day by day!

So yeah, here's a post after what seems to have been quite a long time! If anyone was wondering what's been keeping me busy, there was nothing more exciting than, together with Luke, starting our EU year (Sept06-Sept07) as co-faculty leaders :) I pray that we will only be channels for God to work in and through, that His will be done in EU Science, that He will keep our hearts and minds humbly in line with His purposes, that everything we do we will do for His glory and not ours!

May the mind of Christ

Having just read my friend's most recent post on her blog, my whinging sounded so grr :( Sometimes im sitting in the lectures or walking around cumbo, and i find that i become quite impatient with what im studying there. There is so much confusion and unrest in me sometimes, like surely i must have a passion for some area of study? Why aren't i studying maths or something? Why that sudden change in uac preferences from adv maths? Hmm i don't understand.

But im greatly encouraged by my friend's thankfulness for her being in a car accident that left 2 vertebrae fractured. Through her, i can see God's love, God's grace, God working His purposes out, and it's amazingly beautiful :) I've no doubt that she's had a couple of small struggles with her situation, but God has been so good, so merciful and has filled her with such inexpressible peace :) I'm so grateful God has blessed me with such wonderful sisters and brothers, that He saved us into such wonderful relationships with Him and His family :) Reading her blog was refreshing to say the least.

People ask me what i'll do after i graduate, and i don't know. Options are too broad at the moment, and there's always doubt as to whether certain options would be available in the future. But this i know, that God is good. I don't know what will happen in 2 years time, or in half a year's time ... i don't even know if i'll live for another month or another day, but i do know that God is working His purposes out, and they are good. He alone knows what is best for each and every one of us, and He is loving and gracious :) Looking back, i can see that He's answered some of my deepest prayers already! In around 10 days time, something even more exciting for me may be started ... but let His will be done :) Taste and see that the Lord is good (Psalm 34) and may we become only channels for God!


May the mind of Christ, my Savior,
Live in me from day to day,
By His love and power controlling
All I do and say.

May the Word of God dwell richly
In my heart from hour to hour,
So that all may see I triumph
Only through His power.

May the peace of God my Father
Rule my life in everything,
That I may be calm to comfort
Sick and sorrowing.

May the love of Jesus fill me
As the waters fill the sea;
Him exalting, self abasing,
This is victory.

May I run the race before me,
Strong and brave to face the foe,
Looking only unto Jesus
As I onward go.

May His beauty rest upon me,
As I seek the lost to win,
And may they forget the channel,
Seeing only Him.

it makes that nail stronger

Almost midnight!
Really like thursday nights cos it feels like a friday night ... the anticipation of being allowed to wind down, planning for the weekend, creating a false impression that i'll be really productive over the weekend and as a result spending the whole night bumming around, or if for some strange reason i touch my uni work, the illusion of being ahead with uni work! *groans* accidentally ate and slept my whole evening away eeek :(

Been having the hay fever the past couple of days ... went through a couple of packet of tissues ... wonder how long it'll last? Hehe i always seem to get told off by my mum for being sick ... seems like every year i get the flu mid-winter, then hay fever in sept, and if i go to HK, then the flu again ... and sometimes catching a cold in summer strangely.

Assessments are all crammed up into certain weeks for me this semester ... which isnt too good cos im lacking motivation and discipline these days ... an endless cycle of bludging, then cramming, then bludging, cramming ... aii. This year is mostly exercise sports science, which is really stoopid ... and it's not just me saying so. Lately, im constantly reminded by the futility of the degree exercise & sports science. I took it up cos it meant one more year of study would give me one more degree, and being asian, why not? Wonder if i'll do anything with it in the future ... like all the research is applied ... far out, they do all these studies just to prove a point that common sense would come up with. Like in science, conducting studies adds to the wealth of knowledge humanity has been accumulating over the past few eons, but health sciences pretty much just look at people and draw conclusions from what responses they obtain from the majority of the subjects. For instance, they do all these studies just to say that it would be good for young kids to be able to kick a ball, but it may be too hard on them if we train them, and they spend like a good 10mins of a lecture telling us about it ... 10min lullaby:P Like i have respect for them ... but these days it seems quite pointless and makes me lack the motivation to study.

*breathes out* that was quite a rant hmm ... but sometimes it's not that bad ... the emptiness and hole-liness of cumbo doesnt help at all ... but the people there are great and it's such a nice relaxed setting for lovely chats, which makes up for it :)

Ohh and just in case anyone's wondering why im wearing nail polish to uni, it's cos nail polish makes the nail of my index finger (the one i slammed the car door onto) much stronger, especially when it's wet and warm (coming out of the shower) and putting nail polish onto just one finger seems a bit strange. Hmm maybe not really. Yeah i might wipe it off all other fingers by that one, we'll see!

*yawn*

*yawn*
Lacking motivation to do anything at the moment, which is pretty bad ... blogging instead ... hmm maybe i should head off and do something more productive!
Was at the Aussie masters swimming today (St John duty), which was soooo bludgey. It must be the laziest duty ive ever been to! Just sat there and chatted and read and ate ... ate so much junk food *groans* and they had a sausage sizzle to wrap up the event. Was so stuffy though so i had this annoying headache most of the time ... but there was one very interesting thing that happened ... we treated a broken arm! Yeah it sounds really insensitive and all, and seeing that 10yr old boy screaming with pain was really distressing for sure ... but after learning so much about broken limbs, i gotta say it was quite fascinating to finally see it all put into action. Hmm as we reviewed what we did in our minds though, there were some small things we could've done better ... why didnt we think of that before? Why is it always like that, realising something when it's too late? Guess experience is a good teacher.
Sleeeeeepy. My appreciation for my bed is even more now, after spending last night on the couch. Started off being quite comfy, but it got worse during the night so i kept waking up. Fell asleep on it after washing up last night, and couldnt get myself through a shower. So easy to take little things for granted sometimes. Will sleep in my bed with Wuffie and my bear-bear blankie tonight :)
*nitey nite*