one year ...

... of blogging

time definitely flies! a year since yeh...and around a year since i started blogging! was reading my old blog a couple of nights ago...so much has happened since i started that one! hehe before i ramble on about stuff, two questions ive been asked quite a bit the past 2 months or so:

1) Did u dye ur hair? NUP! Never dyed my hair...naturally brown =)

2) Are you in first year? NUP! Second year (usually followed by rather surprised response from the questioner =S)


anyways ... hmm "keep on swimming" ... guessing i shouldve explained it right at the beginning
=P

people sometimes ask, how do u see life? what can u liken it to? a box of chocolates? a rollarcoaster? personally, right now i prefer the analogy of (bodies of) water (yup and hence my choice of this 'harbour' background)!

as a baby, ur first contact with water (not for drinking etc) would prolly be the bath tub, ur mother cradling u whilst gently lapping the lukewarm water all over u, cleansing u. it's such a comfortable and protected environment and u're fully dependent on the mother...she drops u and u drown. u grow older and u learn how to swim...starting off in the baby pool with water coming up to ur knee and that's it. ur mum, dad...ur whole family...and other kids are all crowding around u as u splash around without a care in the world. such a small, enclosed environment in which u're always surrounding, with all sorts of ppl making sure u're totally safe.

then u grow up. u progress into a bigger pool. u start off hugging the sides of this pool, with the instructor a few centimetres behind u in case u slip off or whatever. u're too scared to leave the ledge initially, but its not long until u wanna explore and u let go bit by bit. kinda like starting school or something...not wanting to go. but when u're a kid everything seems new and exciting. there are always the instructor right behind u though, and ur mum anxiously sitting by the side of the pool watching ur every move

yet another bigger of water that u hop into as u grow older, and no mum or instructor watching u closely...just the lifeguard. now that u've mastered the basic art of swimming u're trying to improve ur skills, bumping up ur endurance levels, improving health and fitness, training for championships perhaps, or simply having fun with friends in the pool ... there seems to be a certain aim u're striving towards. nevertheless there are other ppl keeping u company in the pool...and its relatively safe and secure.

as u grow older and older ur swimming takes u into larger and larger bodies of water ... say the river, the lake, even the sea ... the environment becomes less and less enclosed, and with that the fear (and the adventure/excitement) mounts. waves crashing, predators of the sea (sharks, stingrays etc) ... more and more threatening things and challenges facing u as u progress through life. swimming out alone brings in a sense of loneliness, no one hand-in-hand with u through everything perhaps. further and further out u swim, and u may finally start to question why u're doing what u're going...any meaning or purpose? often in life it's not until later on that we begin to question our existence here on earth etc


one analogy of God's salvation i came across (in my dreams i think) when i was younger is that of a doughnut-shaped (ring) floatie. hehe i had this bright pink 'twinkle twinkle little star' one =P saw myself (ppl living in this world anyway) in this dark, never-ending sea with everything seemingly hopeless. gripped by fear i was frantically splashing around so i wouldnt drown. try as hard as i might, i felt that this present state was the best i could hope to be in, not getting anywhere. an answer to my desperate cry for help, God sent down this floatie, giving me a choice to take it and be saved or to reject it and die. i took this floatie, as did many others, yet there were some who simply refused.


anyways long blog...enough procrastination for moi! thought id celebrate my one year of blogging with an extra long blog =P hehe wonder if anyone's read up to here!

history...for once i was interested in history!

yumcha with family today....hadnt been for sooo long! was really good actually cos my dad gave us a rundown of his family history. was pretty amazing, sitting there listening to him! made me realise a couple of things...like what kinda history will i be retelling in say 30 years time? but more importantly, made me realise how'luxurious' most of us are in this day and age, living in our society. back in those days, some had to struggle just to survive. for some, although they couldve made it into uni and all, their family couldnt afford to see them through it. for some...their values seem so different sometimes...some didnt know God. though i reckon ive had a taste of suffering, history, other ppl's experiences (like from 'the heavenly man' which ive read recently) have made me realise all the more that ive still got no clue abt how 'true suffering' is...the basic struggle to survive for instance

anyways was really interesting to listen abt my (extended) family! so much i hadnt realised!

hmm a few of us had a good chat on friday...was actually looking at what the Bible has to say abt predestination before getting interrupted by someone. interesting talk abt death...that particular girl told us how she's scared of dying and is trying to live a life with regrets, and to live forever. we talked abt God...and how itd be meaningless living forever without God...like for one, u'd be forming relationships with other ppl then see them die one after another. for her it'd mean making more new friends etc, but personally id find that so depressing

should stop blabbing till after my mind has some rest...wonder if any of that made any sense or had any purpose hmm. trying to study but never seem to do as well as i'd like to. like last nite when i tried to study, i conked out (fell asleep) fully >.< shud hop off to study body systems! was doing reproductive system a while ago...some things are confusing me hmm...not that they need to though

long time no blog

wow havent blogged for ages! so much been happening since the last post...assignments and exams piling on >.<>.<>.< not counting the little assignments, ive got one mid-semester exam + one assignment this week, and 3 exams (1 of them is worth 25% !) plus an assignment next week!! argh

anyways just got home from 5hr prac! was alright...very challenging but the thing with molecular bio pracs is that u get something out of it at the end...like u actually learn something =) oooh food science pracs tend to be more fun hehe! last prac these 5 pretty big blokes cooked curry with okra =P was so funny...with us girls just cooking rice and laughing at them, cos u cud tell that they don't cook at home! turned out well though...quite impressive =)

train took aaaaaaaaaages to get to epping though...some fatality/crime scene at concord west...police operation not letting anyone through which meant we waited at north straithfield for too long. got to finish reading 1Chronicles which was pretty good =)

hehe learnt in lecture that guys should start getting their prostates examined from the ago of 45 (from 40 if there's a family history) it's so common for them to get prostate cancer. oooh did u know that the prostate gland is the size of a pistachio nut?? (recommended that guys should eat more red fruits and vegies) and if that seems unfair, well females have a much higher risk of getting bladder infected cos the opening into it is much closer to the external world than the males' ones...just a bit of trivial =P

anyway church camp was so great =) more abt that later though, dinner time!

walked past my primary school on the way home on friday=) the higher years were heading off to sport at ymca...such loud and cheery chatter! made me feel old yet young again, both at the same time. all those good memories flooded back...chasing each other around after school, swinging/somersaulting/hanging upside down on those bars, bouncing/skipping along, squirting water at each other etc etc etc! especially with uni and everything else being so busy lately, ive come to miss those carefree days! even days at highschool ive come to miss. yet i wouldnt give up my days now for those ones...well mayb one or two =P

ED: "Life was his art" !!was such a great episode! dont watch tv much these days at all...just Ed and sometimes Desperate Housewives (hehe if only they'll stop sidetracking =P) Ed is so quirky...so...his character's pretty amazing!

assignment needs completing, another needs doing, another needs to be started...midsemester exams need attention...so do those presentations...as do the quizzes...Moore needs attention too!! as does HSC maths...etc etc etc! guess where im off to now =)