history...for once i was interested in history!

yumcha with family today....hadnt been for sooo long! was really good actually cos my dad gave us a rundown of his family history. was pretty amazing, sitting there listening to him! made me realise a couple of things...like what kinda history will i be retelling in say 30 years time? but more importantly, made me realise how'luxurious' most of us are in this day and age, living in our society. back in those days, some had to struggle just to survive. for some, although they couldve made it into uni and all, their family couldnt afford to see them through it. for some...their values seem so different sometimes...some didnt know God. though i reckon ive had a taste of suffering, history, other ppl's experiences (like from 'the heavenly man' which ive read recently) have made me realise all the more that ive still got no clue abt how 'true suffering' is...the basic struggle to survive for instance

anyways was really interesting to listen abt my (extended) family! so much i hadnt realised!

hmm a few of us had a good chat on friday...was actually looking at what the Bible has to say abt predestination before getting interrupted by someone. interesting talk abt death...that particular girl told us how she's scared of dying and is trying to live a life with regrets, and to live forever. we talked abt God...and how itd be meaningless living forever without God...like for one, u'd be forming relationships with other ppl then see them die one after another. for her it'd mean making more new friends etc, but personally id find that so depressing

should stop blabbing till after my mind has some rest...wonder if any of that made any sense or had any purpose hmm. trying to study but never seem to do as well as i'd like to. like last nite when i tried to study, i conked out (fell asleep) fully >.< shud hop off to study body systems! was doing reproductive system a while ago...some things are confusing me hmm...not that they need to though