welcome back Seca =)

Woohoo car's back *dances around*welcome back Seca =)Hehe finally able to drive to Cumbo again! Such bad driving this morning though grrrr. After having not driven for so long, it took some time for me to achieve a good 'balance' between the braking and accelerating, and it's still not really what i'm after, esp during traffic jams that creep forward slowly, continuously. My dad threw in some fuel injection which has altered it a bit. And banking!! yucky...when making big-ish right turns...a slight banking effect, and the faint grip of the wheels at an imprecise angle kinda thingy...hard to explain, you gotta feel the car. Aiya where's Phil =P must grab him and chuck him into my car! hehe after all it was him (and my dad) who helped polish up my driving last year, teaching me how to feel my car and yelling at me for the slightest bank and accelerating a tiny bit too much =P

Hmm i think i wasn't in too good a mood this morning, cause i got annoyed at cars that took the left lane just to overtake people who lined up patiently for the lights to turn green. They travel in a lane that's like about to end, and then fully expect someone to let them in at the last possible second, and sometimes they don't even indicate properly and simply barge in....hate that. And really don't like it when people pull out from behind because i'm going too slow (even though im going at 82km/h on an 80km/h road) and cut back in right in front of me, almost scraping me, but i don't get as annoyed with them =) Patience is a virtue. Must be more patient and loving, even when i don't feel like it. God is sooo great. He is love. To be like Him, is to love!

goooood day =)

Okies i've decided to continue on with the ALS! Hehe i think i'd made up my mind before posting that last post =P Rereading that post, it sounded quite selfish...avoiding responsibility bahhhhh >.< Like having done Advanced First Aid, more would be expected of me already should certain situations arise, so this just brings it up another notch =P But yeah, when i chose to do first aid at an advanced level (actually when i first joined st johns) i'd decided that this would be something i'd be willing to shoulder. There would already be psychological and emotional consequences attached if you have to perform CPR on someone, and there's the risk of having to watch the patient die in your hands of course. But i think the superintendant made such an important point about it in regards to ALS because they're magnified when you're qualified with ALS. You'll be expected to work with oxygen and analgesic gases and the defib, and hence there would be greater risks. For instance, u can perform 10mins CPR while you wait for an ambo and would be able to sustain life (though it would depend on a number of factors of course). But with ALS, you'd be expected to use the defib, and with just one button you could kill the patient instead of sustaining his/her life....that's wot i meant in my previous post in case it wasnt clear.

Anyways, had a great day today at uni =) hehe i brought along all this work i planned on doing, but EU stuff and catching up with friends took away all my time! was grrrrrreat though =) fell asleep in my 8am math lecture this morning >.< i must've slept on my hands cause on my way out, my friend asked me if i just woke up after seeing this circular red mark on my forehead =P was it that obvious??? hehe better get some stuff done now then!

Growing pains

Need more time! Can't believe it's 11:30pm already, and nothing done yet! Seems to be this continually growing stack of things to be done, but not enough time to do it =( Hmm bad time management though, tonight, with me having just watched half an hour of the commonwealth games. just plonked there and couldnt move anywhere! aiii

St John meeting was great tonight! Our superintendant gave us the lecture, which was great! Oh and i saw a member there whom i havent seen for like half a year!! Still as quirky, still as nice and still as smart! He's getting married on April Fools Day =) first and only person as yet who i know has purposely chosen that date hehe! suits his character =P ohhh it didnt top sunday night though, seeing all the 4th yr physios again after half a year!! Was awesome seeing them again! didnt realise that i'd missed a few of them sooo much....not gonna see them for a while seeing how they're still on clinical placement....

All growing up so quickly...too quickly i feel sometimes....all these friends of mine graduating, including all the pure exercise and sports science ppl (ie not nutrition) who are in my year. wrapping up the exercise sports science side of things this year...not bad actually for us, cos no offence to cumbo, but after spending most of our time at main campus last year, being at cumbo feels also suffocating at times....nothing to do. BUT ive grown to love some of the people there, so it's always great being at cumbo when they're around. im gonna so miss them next year when half of them will have graduated and i wouldnt be at cumbo much at all.

hmm kinda in the middle of doing the ALS (advanced life support) training course at St John, which will qualify us for working with oxygen masks, defib, and administering analgesics!! in wrapping up tonight, our superintendent gave us a warning about taking ALS seriously. paraphrasing his words, it's not simply another certificate, it's a whole notch up from Advanced First Aid/CPR/Senior First Aid courses, so we must take it seriously. if we go out to duties with no one else there having done ALS, we're expected to be the ones who'll be in charge, the ones making all the decisions and giving out orders and all, esp in cases involving cardiac arrests. It'll be a life or death situation pretty much, and there will be no second chances with it at all. Our superintendant warned us that there will be psychological and emotional consequences for us should we find ourselves in such situations, especially if we're forced to watch a patient die in our hands. To be honest, im actually not quite sure i'd want to continue on with the rest of this particular course....like the skills would be great to learn, and i'd love to learn them, but the responsibility it shall carry.....

Growing up aint that appealing these days >.< sometimes i just wanna find a nice little cacoon and hide in it. sometimes when i think about how the generations before us have done quite a bit for us, how they know so much (what they're passing onto us) and the quality of the services they provide for us...and then i think about our generation. i think we take a lot for granted in this day and age. there will be such large shoes for us to fill, and we'll have to step in and try to fill them sooner than we think. hmm sounds quite pessimistic hey...i hope and pray...pray that we'll bring God glory above all else!!

Update !!

Hehe last update hasnt been long ago, but feels like i havent written something here for a while! Been pretty busy these days, and quite tired, but all in all things have been going alright =) Many new things, new roles, new responsibilities....been challenging an exciting! Back at uni for almost two weeks now, and it's been awesome seeing everyone again, and meeting new ppl too! So much to do, and so little time ... always feeling pushed for time, for some reason there's never enough of it, even though i've been averaging 5-6 hrs sleep a night this past fortnight! Starting to get used to all those early starts though hehe.

Just had our first small group meeting for this semester, which went pretty well! Met up with my co-leader an hour before the meeting which was great ... it's good to lead with someone you know i reckon, makes for a smoother group time ... hehe it was awesome how during that small group session we communicated just by looking at each other and raising eyebrows! still don't know my co-leader well yet, but i feel we complement each other alright but at the same time with similar mindsets and personalities, and have got along well so far...and im thankful for the leadership qualities that he possesses =)

Hmm what should i ramble on about today ... got another couple of hours until work today! Thinking i'll go to officeworks or something ... ohhh have to get a 21st pressie for someone, but not sure what to get yet ... and have yet to start putting the 21st speech onto paper!! Must get that done sooooon! Actually might head off and think about it now!!

Hmm i don't know if i like this story, or would be willing adopt the meanings in it and all, but here's something that my employer sent me...makes for an interesting short read i guess!


The Mouse Trap

A mouse looked through the crack in the wall to see the farmer and his wife open a package.

"What food might this contain?" The mouse wondered - he was devastated to discover it was a mousetrap. Retreating to the farmyard, the mouse proclaimed the warning.

"There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!"The chicken clucked and scratched, raised her head and said, "Mr. Mouse, I can tell this is a grave concern to you, but it is of no consequence to me. I cannot be bothered by it."

The mouse turned to the pig and told him, "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house!" The pig sympathized, but said, "I am so very sorry, Mr. Mouse, but there is nothing I can do about it

The mouse turned to the cow and said, "There is a mousetrap in the house! There is a mousetrap in the house! "The cow said, "Wow, Mr. Mouse. I'm sorry for you, but it's no skin off my nose."

So, the mouse returned to the house, head down and dejected, to face the farmer's mousetrap alone. That very night a sound was heard throughout the house -- like the sound of a mousetrap catching its prey.

The farmer's wife rushed to see what was caught. In the darkness, she did not see it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught. The snake bit the farmer's wife. The farmer rushed her to the hospital, and she returned home with a fever.

Everyone knows you treat a fever with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer took his hatchet to the farmyard for the soup's main ingredient. But his wife's sickness continued, so friends and neighbors came to sit with her around the clock. To feed them, the farmer butchered the pig.
The farmer's wife did not get well; she died. So many people came for her funeral, the farmer had the cow slaughtered to provide enough meat for all of them.

The mouse looked upon it all from his crack in the wall with great sadness.So, the next time you hear someone is facing a problem and think it doesn't concern you, remember -- when one of us is threatened, we are all at risk.

We are all involved in this journey called life. We must keep an eye out for one another and make an extra effort to encourage one another.
Each of us is a vital thread in another person's tapestry. Our lives are woven together for a reason.

One of the best things to hold onto in this world..... is a friend.


wonder who wrote that....but i do agree with it's last line, that one of the best things in this world is a brother/sister in Christ or friend!! someone who cares about you and who can care about, and grow in a relationship with!

so much organisational stuff this weekend, and it's still not all done...sometimes taking little things done can take so much time!! there was nothing like receiving a cheerful email that just made me crack up from a friend just then....short and sweet...almost =) hehe!

rather long, but take a read!

http://www.smh.com.au/news/national/join-up-repent-get-a-free-showbag/2006/03/11/1141701706914.html?page=fullpage#contentSwap1

Can't believe that 3 months of holidays have just flown right past and we're back at uni again! It's been good to be back, and seeing everyone again, getting to know people better and meeting new faces!! Everyone's so excited and bubbly it's great! So tired though, i nodded off in one of today's many classes >< Can't believe im doing that already. My poor body rhythm getting warped again....like during the holidays there were days when i woke up at 5 something for work, but at work i'm active and it's not until i get home and settle down that i realise how tired i am...whereas at uni, once the lecture hall is dimmed and the lecturer starts singing her lullaby...getting to uni at 8am three times a week is really not my thing =P ah well, at least i get to use the air before other people =P hahaha

I feel that ive had a great summer holidays....to round off the best year i've had - 2005!! It's been a great year and im so thankful. Thank God for all those different and, at times, challenging experiences. There have definitely been highs and lows (more about year 2005 later perhaps!) but all in all, it was a pretty great year for me. I don't mean that everything went well, or that everything i wanted to happen happened, but there were many times when God was there with me, guiding me and loving me, graciously allowing me to walk closer to Him...i can't put it into words coherently at the moment, but im just soooo thankful for year 2005! I wonder if 2006 will top it =)

Aiii getting tanned these days hehe...got majorly sunburnt twice in the past fortnight!! (that's where i got my red nose from, as my bro put it hehe) Came home last thurs fully red, kinda like when ive been drinking.....and my mum was like wot the... hehe she asked if i had been drinking...i was like huh?? firstly, i don't drink during the day, and not at uni....and even if i had been drinking, that redness fades away after an hour or so, i got redder and redder till the next morning, and it was still so red the cook asked me if id spent all day at the beach!!!! aiya hehe then came the peeling... =P im still surprised by how sharp my mum is and how well she knows me actually! and thankful to God for her =) she picks it up immediately when im upset... i remember asking her how she knew this one time, and she said that i was really quiet and serious....and had this look on my face or in my eyes (cant remember exactly). i was like wow.... but it's such a comfort to be able to chat to her about anything and everything! as long as it doesnt stress her out though, i try to keep that from her....sometimes she manages to pry it out of it anyway! but wow, i feel that some mums really do know their children inside out....must be sooo special, to have a baby...like growing inside u, and then u spending the rest of ur life nurturing/caring/protecting/etc ur child!!!

anyway pretty tired and drained somewhat...hmm so hard sometimes i reckon, to miss someone whether it be a cousin or aunt or friend etc...esp when there's nothing u can do about it. Seems like u can miss someone or something or some stuff that used to be but is no more so much that things can go one of only a few ways.... like u never talk to them again for fear of being hurt again at the cost of ur friendship, or u ignore distance completely, maintaining the state of things as they were in the past, possibly worsening things, or... rely on God completely, open up to Him and trust Him with ur emotions amongst other things... tell Him how much u're hurting inside, open ur floodgates and just cry to Him... that's all ive been able to do at a couple of moments (not just because i missed someone of course) just run to God and He'll take care of you =) it's all you can do sometimes, and i guess, all u should do so to speak...and it's the best


Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:28-31

Je marche seule

Had a pretty good chat with my brother just then, before he went off to bed. Now that im in uni, i keep forgetting that year 12 is pretty difficult for most students, and at that particular stage of life, they really need our support. Us who have been through the HSC ourselves can give them valuable support and advice in my opinion, perhaps even more so than their tutors outside of school should they have any! Hmm must remember to pray for my brother regularly and give him some help with the subjects he's doing that i know what i'm on about!!! Must make that a priority as his half-yearlys approach!

Went to St Johns meeting last night, which went pretty well i felt!! My dad has been so nice lately, driving me around (cos we've only got the one car at the moment). Must buy him a packet of minties or something soon hehe! I did buy him one, a jumbo pack too, but i went over to a friend's place today and thought it'd be nice to take something along, so being in a hurry, i grabbed the first unopened packet of food i found =P

Hehe St Johns is having a social BBQ night next tues, if anyone's interested! Like if u wanted to find out what we do on a causal basis, then yeh, good opportunity. I could hardly believe it though, when they told us about it last night, and invited partners of members along. Like a lot of them are married, or engaged, and most of the unmarried ones are going out with someone ... so yeah it was a great idea i reckon! But what about me?? Hehe even at St Johns i feel pressured to have a boyfriend....aiiii =P Hehe my mum's response: "then just go and randomly find some guy now"... my dad's response: "i feel that you don't have to do so that quickly". Hmmmm who should i listen to =P

Ohhh lately i've been investigating what Catholicism is about, as some of u know cos ive asked some people about it. A friend lent me a book by Tony Coffey "Once a Catholic" and ive just finished typing up some notes from it, so yeah, if anyone's interested =) I've taken notes about the following questions:

- Who speaks for God?
- Who gave us the Bible?
- Which is the one true Church?
- Is the Papacy taught in Scripture?
- Did the first Christians believe in the Mass?
- Should we go to confession?
- Who are God's priests?
- What about Mary?
- What about purgatory?