Can't believe that 3 months of holidays have just flown right past and we're back at uni again! It's been good to be back, and seeing everyone again, getting to know people better and meeting new faces!! Everyone's so excited and bubbly it's great! So tired though, i nodded off in one of today's many classes >< Can't believe im doing that already. My poor body rhythm getting warped again....like during the holidays there were days when i woke up at 5 something for work, but at work i'm active and it's not until i get home and settle down that i realise how tired i am...whereas at uni, once the lecture hall is dimmed and the lecturer starts singing her lullaby...getting to uni at 8am three times a week is really not my thing =P ah well, at least i get to use the air before other people =P hahaha

I feel that ive had a great summer holidays....to round off the best year i've had - 2005!! It's been a great year and im so thankful. Thank God for all those different and, at times, challenging experiences. There have definitely been highs and lows (more about year 2005 later perhaps!) but all in all, it was a pretty great year for me. I don't mean that everything went well, or that everything i wanted to happen happened, but there were many times when God was there with me, guiding me and loving me, graciously allowing me to walk closer to Him...i can't put it into words coherently at the moment, but im just soooo thankful for year 2005! I wonder if 2006 will top it =)

Aiii getting tanned these days hehe...got majorly sunburnt twice in the past fortnight!! (that's where i got my red nose from, as my bro put it hehe) Came home last thurs fully red, kinda like when ive been drinking.....and my mum was like wot the... hehe she asked if i had been drinking...i was like huh?? firstly, i don't drink during the day, and not at uni....and even if i had been drinking, that redness fades away after an hour or so, i got redder and redder till the next morning, and it was still so red the cook asked me if id spent all day at the beach!!!! aiya hehe then came the peeling... =P im still surprised by how sharp my mum is and how well she knows me actually! and thankful to God for her =) she picks it up immediately when im upset... i remember asking her how she knew this one time, and she said that i was really quiet and serious....and had this look on my face or in my eyes (cant remember exactly). i was like wow.... but it's such a comfort to be able to chat to her about anything and everything! as long as it doesnt stress her out though, i try to keep that from her....sometimes she manages to pry it out of it anyway! but wow, i feel that some mums really do know their children inside out....must be sooo special, to have a baby...like growing inside u, and then u spending the rest of ur life nurturing/caring/protecting/etc ur child!!!

anyway pretty tired and drained somewhat...hmm so hard sometimes i reckon, to miss someone whether it be a cousin or aunt or friend etc...esp when there's nothing u can do about it. Seems like u can miss someone or something or some stuff that used to be but is no more so much that things can go one of only a few ways.... like u never talk to them again for fear of being hurt again at the cost of ur friendship, or u ignore distance completely, maintaining the state of things as they were in the past, possibly worsening things, or... rely on God completely, open up to Him and trust Him with ur emotions amongst other things... tell Him how much u're hurting inside, open ur floodgates and just cry to Him... that's all ive been able to do at a couple of moments (not just because i missed someone of course) just run to God and He'll take care of you =) it's all you can do sometimes, and i guess, all u should do so to speak...and it's the best


Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:28-31