A dream come true

These days, in some parts of my life, im living my dream

Growing up with a non-Christian dad, i've always dreamt of serving God as a leader. In teens fellowship and church service, my inability to attend regularly casted me out of serving in ways i really wanted to. That's not to say that one can only serve in certain ways, but i grew up being so encouraged and inspired by those who teach the Bible to others (my Bible study leaders, the committee members who ran the fellowship groups, etc) as well as by those who serve through music at church. God has been sooo good, realising my hopes and dreams over the past year or so! My baptism was awesome ... just the fact that i was baptised and my dad came and watched goes to show God's mighty hand, faithfulness, grace and love =)
But now that God's graciously allowed me to serve Him in Bible study leading and as a muso, more often than not i feel so inadequate and challenged, not that i ever felt adequate before taking on such roles. More often than not i feel like such a failure. I never seem to do as well as i'd like to, there's always not as much time as i'd like there to be, i feel as though i'm failing God so much! Then i'm reminded that we are nothing but weak vessels, we can never ever do anything by ourselves, we are never self-sufficient
... for it is all God !!!
Don't want to be anything but a weak vessel for God, don't want to feel adequate because without God, i'm nothing. Only hoping to be a channel.
When i first started writing Bible studies, one of my friends shared with me an experience in which he felt he'd just written the worst Bible study ever, and had no time to rewrite it. He felt it'd do no one any good, but God worked so amazingly through it that in the end, it became one of the best Bible studies he'd led ever =)

God works powerfully through all things. We may feel weak at times, disappointed, discouraged, disillusioned. But can we ever really do anything? Be faithful. Be prayerful. Strive to be like Christ, looking to Him. It is through weakness that God's strength shines out.

May the mind of Christ, my Savior,
Live in me from day to day,
By His love and power controlling
All I do and say.